Monday, March 30, 2009

What about the LOVE

What about the love? When we hurt others or they hurt us shouldn't we always respond in love? Isn't that what makes the world a better place. If that is the case then why can't everyone just get along. I get so sick of the self-righteous who think that they are always right and everyone else is always wrong. Who pretend to have all the answers while knowing nothing about grace, mercy, love or forgiveness. I know I am ranting, but it stinks to be caught in the crossfire of two people that you love and you know they love eachother. Yet it is so hard for them to see there own short comings and not just point to the others.

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Work in progress

Why is it that the best lessons learned in life are some of the hardest. Mostly taught to us as children and hard to follow as adults. Like treat others as you want to be treated, if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all. Why do we lose that sense of right and wrong, what we should and shouldn't do. I am defiantly a work in progress and would profess nothing less. I hope that I am being a good example for my children and think often about the choices I make. I want people in my life who are light hearted and don't always take themselves to serious or can laugh and have fun, yet are tender and kind to others and think about what they say or do. I am not always the most gracious of people and have been known to let my true feelings show more then once. I am often wrong and will admit it and seek to change. I try to look for good before the bad and do not want to be bitter in this place. I try to keep my heart open and my feelings to myself (though at times it gets the best of me). Live and let live isn't that the saying. Well, I must keep my heart right...

Monday, March 9, 2009


Do you ever find yourself planted rooted deeply in thought. I have lately more then not. I often see my past like snapshots and short stories. There are many things I wish that I would have said more often.

Tonight we (Lety,Kathy and I) went to see Tyler Perry's The Marriage Counselor. It was so funny!!! It makes you think about how one mistake can lead to another and before you know it your whole life can be turned upside down. The grass isn't always greener on the other side kind of thing. With a ton of laughs!

It has been a long week and I have been missing being around familiar faces and places. Long night out on the street in the neighborhood, just laughing and having a great time. I know that once you leave a place that when you go back it is never the same, yet I am ready to move on again and find that place where laughter and the main thing goin'on!

For me moving is like therapy you can re-invent yourself everytime. You grow and learn alot about yourself by being put in new places and new sistuations with new people!

Sunday, March 1, 2009

Per Chance

At first glance you would have thought it was nothing, but it was. You would have thought it was just two girls having a conversation, little did the rest of the world know that the one conversation would change the two girls lives forever. The conversation was the one between my best friend and I. It would be the conversation that would lead us both out of the current relationships we were in and off to new cities and towns to live in. We would both move back to the places where our parents lived to rebuild our lives, figure out once again who we were and bring us back to center. The next two years would be spent with a minimum of 4 to five letters a week between the two of us. You see we were only casual friends during that conversation and when we parted. We exchanged address, and once I was settled in I would begin to write to her. I would write this person that I barley knew the most intimate details of my life. I would pour my soul out on paper. No pretenses just honesty. That is how our relationship began, we wrote of our pasts, present and what we each hoped our futures would be. I must say that today looking back on it she is the one person who completely knows me.

To Be Continued...