This Morning

This morning no one wanted to get out of bed as the crisp Autumn air filled the house. The four K's came dragging upstairs. They reluctantly got dressed and so began another day. As I walked through the house with my first very needed cup of coffee I saw one getting breakfast another staring off into space not quite ready to focus on his day, one needing help getting his pj's off his head while the other hummed a tune as he was brushing his teeth. Can you guess who is who in this picture? K-1 was eating, K-3 was not focused, K-4 needed help and yes K-2 was humming! They day is packed full yet again, I am off to teach math to some very advanced 1st graders, then parent teacher conferences, carpool, homework with 4 kids, dinner, dishes, laundry and on no sleep. This little girl that I carry inside me I am sure is already anticipating life on the outside as she only likes to sit in my ribs and make me uncomfortable all night.

How did I get so lucky to have these four guys in my life. It takes more power then I have at times not to bite them and smush them up. K3 always tells me after dinner "thanks mom for the great dinner, I loved it" where do these people come from? Some people say good parenting, but trust me that did not come from me! I think it is pure luck and I hit the jackpot. Though at times they make me crazy and there are not enough hours in my day! I wouldn't trade this life with all it's up's and down's for anything else.

I love mud covered kisses and boys talking about snot! I just hope that I will feel the same way about sugar and spice and everything nice! A good friend of mine said it best when she is entering high school K-4 will be going to college and you won't have to feel guilty about focusing all your energy on her and making sure she stays out of trouble!

So needless to say I am thankful, thankful for this crazy time in my life where everything moves a warp speed and all the days blend together. Thankful for these little hands that I get to hold even though some of them are almost as big as mine! Thankful for the young men that they are! Ready to see if I can love another just as much as them!

Life has Season's

My father would always tell me that life has season's. Season's of sorrow, joy, happiness, wealth and silence. Now that I am in my mid 30's and having my 5th child, I can look back and see how much I have changed and what season's I have been in. The lesson's we learn along the way if we stop and reflect always help us in our current place. They give you strength to draw from, knowing where you have been and what you have made it through. These things give you hope, hope that the challenges you face you will overcome. All it takes is a little faith not alot just a little, the faith of a mustard seed. The most difficult things have brought me the greatest joy, the deepest sorrow has brought me the most peace. I hope that one day I can leave a profound impression on my children that we they face the mountains in this world they will know that they can conquer them. That as each chapter unfolds there is a new story about to be written and you can draw a inner strength from the road you have traveled no matter how rocky it has been.

7 Years Ago Today

Seven years ago today I became a mother for the second time at 10:06 a.m. I had my 2nd son K-2. I was induced to have you early so that we could move to Maryland. You were born with great ease. The day we went home form the hospital Daddy and Papa left to find a house for us to live in Maryland and Mimi and I went home and started packing. We headed out on the 23 hour drive when you were only 2 weeks old. The first few weeks you slept alot. Then you screamed for the next year!

When I look at you I often see so much of myself. That can serve you well or be to your own demise! You are strong willed, do not care about others opinions of you, you have a wild imagination, to those you love you are the faith fullest of friends. There are so many things I love about you, you always make me laugh, you drive me crazy more then not, you are always up to something!

I am so glad that I get to be your mother everyday! You never cease to amaze me, though I know I am in for a wild ride and pray that I can keep you grounded, give you all the tools you need to succeed I love you more and more everyday!

So I hope that the next seven are just as great as the last!

Friends

There are these women in my life that I love more then life it's self. No matter what distance may separate you from them, or how long it has been since you talked last. You can pick up right where you left off. They are constant, low-maintenance, fun loving friends. They will laugh with you, cry with you, be there for you in any way they can. I miss them most of the time and think of them often. Most of them are people who still live in places that I left. We became friends in many ways most of them have children my kids ages. They still know and understand what phase of life I am in. Most important they love me for our differences and accept me just the way I am. They make up a big part of my life and I am so glad that they have shared there families and lives with us!

Sensitive

Anyone who knows me, knows that I am not the sensitive type. If you need extra care I am not the girl for you. I am sure life made me that way. Leaving home at 16 working in downtown Fort Worth 400 miles aways from friends and family taught me more then a few things. I figure if I can deal with whatever the rest of the world should be able to as well. But, as you grow up thing seem to become more complex, the people in your life become more complex and all come with there own set of issues. I don't go out of my way to hurt others, though yes sometimes it happens. I'm not the kind of person who stays mad, I normally speak my mind then I'm over it. I hold no grudge and try to live my life without regret. For the most part I am an open book. If you get the privilege of being considered a true friend of mine I would do anything in the world for you. I will treat you like I want to be treated by a friend. I put great value on my relationships not only with friends, but my family as well. Everyone who comes in and out of our lives has something valuable to give. They are woven into the fibers of who we are, they help shape and refine us. So if I do not tell you enough how much you mean to me just know that you do! That I love and care about you and even though I am not sensitive, I will still try!